INSOMIA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

again... i cannot sleep. thiss is damn annoying.
always lie on the bed but cannot fall asleep.
but interesting thing is that i still got energy to do anything
i wonder why.......
YourName | 3:58 AM |

crap crap crap
too much burgers... ARRGGGGHHH
need the gym... need it NOW
last week went aston to eat... this week went botak jones
superb burgers to eat... but soon gonna get heart attack or stroke

right... if you had super powers, what would it be ???

hehe... mine would be... hmm... when i touch anyone, the person will die.
touch any C people.
YourName | 1:49 AM |

3rd day of suffering from the heart ache.
3rd day of drinking..... as i am writing, i am drinking.
what the hell have i become......
i don't smile at all
interesting for me of course.
i have seriously never been like this before .
life has been so unfair... UNFAIR!!!!!!!!!!

well.. just as i have put on my msn,
soccer and drinking is the way to solve problem
or maybe best way to forget.
ha... i put my "emo- ness" to good use.
i've scored so many goals today in soccer

people has told me that not to think about it.
they say that there are other girls
but they won't understand.
i'm not like other guys.....
YourName | 2:25 AM |

ok.... i am now so emo !!!!!!!!!!!!!
what is this feeling... i have never feel like this before.
sadness....
what is sadness....
since primary 6 until now, i have never had this feeling before.

why everytime i like a girl, ok... not everytime.... why everytime i feel that
the girl is attached, she is really attached !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i cannot believe it....
Is this my destiny?? no girlfriend... be a damn priest ??

sheez... i think i should pack my bags and go to spain.
YourName | 12:05 AM |

why o why am i like that.

what kind of human am i to be afraid of other human.
well, just got a boost from my best friend, RIdhwan.

now .... thump thump... i am gonna know you.
YourName | 1:11 AM |

today... i was damn prepared !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
only to find out... she wasn't in the library.

never mind there is the next day....
no regrets....

NO VICTORY NO SURRENDER
YourName | 11:44 PM |

sigh......
regrets.... regrets
how the hell did i not move..... i really cannot understand myself
its my secondary school cowardness is still in me.
omg... i thought it was gone.
ok... i always say next day next day.
but this coming monday.... i have to do it.
i got no choice... if not... regrets will be with me forever.
i feel the pain...
YourName | 1:26 AM |

how long do i have to get rid of that nervousness?
or when will i stop being shy ??????

why... why .... WHY.....

this is nonsense

but now i got no choice
i have to do it.... or i will pack my bags and fly to italy to be a priest.
or maybe fly to spain.... and stay there.
YourName | 1:58 AM |

term test is over.
but the sad thing is not the term test, my great grandma passed away.
ok... that isn't quite a sad thing... well my great grandma live her life
without any suffering... no family problems.
she is considered one of the oldest woman in singapore.
102 years old..... that is long

now another subject.. the term test.... i can say i did good for a few subjects
but 2 of the subjects i am sure to fail.

alright talk about thump thump girl. sheez.... i felt like an idiot on friday
my friend, andre, went to her and started asking her
that this guy( which is moi) wanted to know this girl but don't know
how to.
and she answer him... that the guy should approach her or write a letter.
next andre point his finger at me.... and i was a like an idiot standing at the pillar
JUST STANDING...OMG... what the hell was i doing!!!!
and that girl look at me
crap man.... and i was worried suddenly that i gave a bad impression.
i hope i won't fail again and be nervous
its damn fustrating to be nervous... if i fail, i have that feeling that it gonna take another 9 or maybe 8 or maybe worst... forever
YourName | 2:44 AM |